brian has a girlfriend he just asked her out she said yes and now they are dating im happy hes happy but i wish he could be happy with me eric asked me out and i turned him flat down cause i dont want to like him but only to find out it was a dare i figured it was a joke but for him to have to be DARED to do it .... ouch.... im starting to lose faith in this thing called "love" and in the male populus in general (and no i am NOT switching to chicks even though that almost seems so much easier)it just hurts seing everyone so happy and all the couples together and all the songs on the radio all of it is a slap in the face for people like me who have never even had someone tell them they like them ik ik boys arent everything but they sure as hell arent nothing

jesse brett james and joe are all dicks and wont leave me the fuck alone they even got Q in on it i thought he was one of the nice guys a little getto but never did nothing to bother me till he met jessee and joe jesse is almost the worst because i see him all the time and he hates me now cause im a bitch to him cause im just so sick of it so now he is actually being mean not pullin out any stops anymore from his old just harassment to bullying and some of the shit he says hits home the rest are just annoying as hell and keep on harassing me even though ive told them to leave me alone what did i do to deserve this shit just because im an easy target or i stand out because im not afraid to be different and because im fat are any of those good reasons to give someone the power to ruin another persons day on a regular basis

im in a fight with mom almost every day we just cant seem to see eye to eye on anything and she bitches about everything and so i get an attitude then she keeps goin on and on and i snap and she snaps at me for snaping at her we walk away in a storm i cry she fumes and we never talk about the incident again and if we see eachother again and have to interact its like nothing happened wtf she is always fighting with dad too and the tension n our housde could be cut with a knife

my dad is working 2 jobs full and part time and we still cant pay the bills i feel bad cause just me eating lunch costs 10 bucks a week and i cant take all the stress of their issues and my issues and its all too much .... im not okay anymore the scars on my thigh are proof of that i do everything right though so i dont get sick i wash the blade and make sure its sharp and afterwards i put antibiotic on it and yea i see why ppl do it now it helps ik ik its a bad idea but we all make mistakes and i havent made any big ones yet so i guess its my turn im just so sick of this shit